As someone who has been living with severe suicidal ideation my entire life I wanna tell you all something, you don’t have to stay alive for yourself. People will say it’s a bad idea to live for external things because they’re temporary, and it’s true living for yourself is ideal but if you’re not to that point yet that’s ok too.
I’ve lived for my dog for the past 4 years, before that I lived for my snakes, before that I lived for my cat. You can live for whatever needs you and whatever matters to you. Live for your best friend, live for your plants, live for your pets, live for your animal crossing town. Live for whatever keeps you alive and the day will come when you can live for yourself.
This is something everyone should see. Thank you for sharing this.
Transformers kept me alive. When the 2007 movie was announced I was going through an incredibly hard time emotionally. I saw the preview and every time I thought about killing myself I thought, “but then I won’t get to see this thing I’ve always wanted to see, good or not.” And it got me through.
I’m in a place where I live for myself now, but don’t toss away a life preserver just because other people think you should be able to swim on your own.
don’t toss away a life preserver just because other people think you should be able to swim on your own
One time I was basically going to jump off a bridge, but before that I decided to call a very good friend. I told her what I was going to do and her reply was basically “The new Souless book is coming out next week. Do you really want to die with that horrible cliffhanger she left for us?”
I just basically went “well damn, I forgot about that” and got away from the bridge.
In hindsight it’s slightly funny how effective that was. Like she didn’t do the cliche “your parents/siblings need you” or the like. She just gave me a short term goal with no pressure to last one more week. And once you reach that finish line, I would just go aiming for other lines…
No joke for a couple years I was hanging around solely for the Hobbit movies. And to make sure there was someone around to look after my cats.
The Paradox Machine 