After the monumentally stressful experience of going to the urgent care clinic yesterday, the prescription painkiller and muscle relaxant they gave me does nothing. I’m not even having side effects. They told me it’d make me tired and dizzy. It didn’t. I had to take melatonin to get to sleep last night. It didn’t even kind of take the edge off the pain.

It.

Does.

Nothing.

Not using my right arm is fucking impossible and she said if it doesn’t get better in 2 weeks I need to come back in and look into physical therapy. If it comes to that I may tell her I would rather have surgery. If I have to be touched in a medical context I’d rather be unconscious for it.

I’m mostly upset because I feel like I’m not being taken seriously. I overcame a major phobia only to be prescribed something I could get over the counter at a grocery store. And I’m still in pain. The same damn amount of pain.