It’s not that I can’t handle pain. It’s that I sucked it up and did something very uncomfortable in the understanding that something would be done about my pain. But she basically told me to just wait it out, even though I’ve already been waiting a month, and gave me nothing to effectively deal with the pain.

So basically I exposed myself to a great deal of discomfort and gave up the few hours of mental rest I get a day for nothing. And it’s upsetting.

And now I’m thinking the only way for me to do anything is to get a second opinion which is basically starting over from scratch and I can’t do that, mentally or financially.

It especially bothers me that the doctor assumed I couldn’t have a tear based on my age. But people have been telling me I’m too young to be tired for years and I’m and I’m exhausted 24/7 so we’ve pretty much demolished that notion haven’t we?