addignisherlock:

just-shower-thoughts:

Saying “Fuck it” actually motivates me more than “You can do this”.

Because saying “fuck it” includes the total acceptance of failure as the outcome, meanwhile “you can do this” focuses only on the hopes of a successful outcome and the lack of acknowledgement of the equally probable failure outcome induces a certain level of unspoken anxiety

Oohhhhh. It’s his birthday. And apparently he’s given himself the gift of pissing me off.

According to the people here he’s been trying to get people’s attention but no one wants to acknowledge it because he’s a jerk who expects it but won’t do it for anyone else. And I had no way of knowing this and I’ve been suicidal for days and slipped into a serious existential crisis and he doesn’t give a shit so why should I?

Normally I’d be sad for someone not having their birthday acknowledged no matter how old they are but geez guy maybe don’t be a douche and people will care. Stop mansplaining a language you don’t speak to someone who does. Stop being an asshole.

Oh I’m sorry. Did I come out of my existential crisis a little too far for you? Was my brief lack of despair too distracting for you?

Like I’m literally listening to this particular comedian because he talks about mental illness and his whole schtick is finding funny in a dark place which is what I need right now. You can play the Oppression Olympics all you fucking want but my life is fucked and I don’t need to tell you about it to feel validated. You’ve been here 14 years and have one friend who transferred out because he couldn’t stand working with you. The entire office can’t stand you. It’s not them, it’s you and the only reason I tolerate it is because I’ve dealt with far far worse. So get off your goddamn high horse and leave me the hell alone.