Nebula couldn’t give less of a crap about catnip but holy shit does this cat love icyhot. My neck is incredibly tense and I have a store-brand version in a spray and she keeps getting up and rubbing her body on the floor where I was standing when I sprayed it. The first time I used it with her around, she desperately tried to lick it off my skin.
If you’re one of those people who thinks executive dysfunction only happens for things we don’t like (school, cleaning,) then please consider the fact that I’ve been meaning to plug my phone in for 20 minutes and I’m now at 2% and still putting it off to write this post ¯_(ツ)_/¯
My anime/video game list consists of over 100 titles, easily, and yet I almost never get around to watching/playing any of them.
Executive dysfunction is not just for boring or unenjoyable things. It’s for everything. Even eating.
What is executive dysfunction? O.o
Put simply, it’s difficulty/inability with initiating tasks. The prefrontal cortex is responsible for executive functions, like decision-making and impulse control. People with ADHD and other neurological disorders that affect the prefrontal cortex often experience difficulty making decisions and performing tasks, as well as exercising self restraint. Part of why people with ADHD tend to procrastinate so badly is out of genuine inability to begin tasks, even if they’re very important.
It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.
It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.
Oh thank god, someoneput it into words.
For me it’s also waiting for the “right” time to come to complete the task because for some reason my brain thinks doing the task at any other time is horribly, horribly wrong, weird, and out of order. The “right” time might come eventually, might not. It’s a lottery.
that part
I was at work for over 12 hours. My co-worker is gone for the week. Tomorrow is posting and will be so much worse than today. My mom called with bad news on her end and Arthur is making noise. Probably not a lot of noise, but like Too. Much. For. Me. And he’s being needy. And my neck has been hurting since this morning and now it’s so much worse because I’ve been at my desk for 12 hours.
I want to cry someone please massage my neck and idk help me sleep or play with my dog or something.
adhd mode 1: I want to do this thing!!!! I’m going to do the thing!!! *5 mins later* this is so exhausting lets not do the thing, I’m done
adhd mode 2: *hyperfocus on the most irrelevant, completely unwarranted task in the world* “where did the sun go?”
adhd mode 3: *cue panic-induced motivation, typically offset by: an exam in 1 hr, a 10 pg paper due at 8AM, and other anxiety-stricken deadlines*
adhd mode 4: I want to do something but I don’t know WHAT I want to do, I want to do a million things *spend an entire day restlessly moving from task to task*
adhd mode 5: I’m READY to be PRODUCTIVE! But first, I need to get a cup of water. But wait, there’s no ice in the freezer let me make ice. Hold on, all the cups are dirty, time do the dishes lol. Hm… there’s dishes in my room let me go get them. Oh, there’s my computer let me go check Tumblr. *5 hrs later* What was I just gonna do
I got this amazing Star Trek calendar for 2018. It’s on a metal spiral instead of folded and each month has a print that is fan art of the series. The prints take up most of the page and each print has perforated edges so you can take the dates off and frame any of the posters you like.
The result is that this is the most gorgeously useless calendar in the universe.
Yesterday we went to see Stravinsky’s Firebird, and as the ballet has only 1 act, they added another act of rather random dances, many of which were super boring. But also, there were pieces from a ballet, that seemed to be the usual 19 century ballet nonsense, but was in fact based on this book:
I mean, wow. A way to make me want to watch an old ballet.
The Paradox Machine 