Good morning, on 7 July

Even in bed my ideas yearn towards you, my Immortal Beloved, here and there joyfully, then again sadly, awaiting from Fate, whether it will listen to us. I can only live, either altogether with you or not at all. Yes, I have determined to wander about for so long far away, until I can fly into your arms and call myself quite at home with you, can send my soul enveloped by yours into the realm of spirits — yes, I regret, it must be. You will get over it all the more as you know my faithfulness to you; never another one can own my heart, never — never! O God, why must one go away from what one loves so, and yet my life in W. as it is now is a miserable life. Your love made me the happiest and unhappiest at the same time. At my actual age I should need some continuity, sameness of life — can that exist under our circumstances? Angel, I just hear that the post goes out every day — and must close therefore, so that you get the L. at once. Be calm — love me — today — yesterday.

What longing in tears for you — You — my Life — my All — farewell. Oh, go on loving me — never doubt the faithfullest heart

Of your beloved

L

Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.

From Beethoven to “Immortal Beloved” (via seasonwanderer)

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my immortal beloved. Be calm—love me today, yesterday, what tearful longings for you. You, you my life, my all farewell. Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. Ever thine. Ever mine. Ever ours.

Immortal Beloved by Ludwig van Beethoven

(via zinlad)

I may actually be able to get some help for whatever Thing(s) is/are wrong with me psychologically/developmentally/whateverally. I strongly suspect I have ADHD, and I am sorely tempted to track down every ADHD post I have ever identified with and idk print them off or save them in a single blog or something to show to whatever counselor I speak to about it. Because tbh there have been dozens of them.