amphiaria:

amphiaria:

this is the most sophisticated phishing e-mail I have ever received and if they had sized the logo correctly and actually proofread the fucking thing I probably would’ve clicked that button

actually please reblog this because someone else got it too. do not click on the links in this e-mail if you get one like it, just forward it to spoof@paypal.com and delete it

It seriously just occurred to me that the urgent care place I went to never asked me what medications I’m on. Well they did but when I started to list what I’m taking the nurse cut me off and said she just needed to know any prescriptions. Except that’s wrong. One of the very common herbal supplements I’m taking has some pretty major drug interactions. It screws around with your liver metabolism too. Even my optometrist wants to know everything I’m on up to and including vitamins.

Between that and them straight up forgetting me I really don’t want to go back to this place.

After the monumentally stressful experience of going to the urgent care clinic yesterday, the prescription painkiller and muscle relaxant they gave me does nothing. I’m not even having side effects. They told me it’d make me tired and dizzy. It didn’t. I had to take melatonin to get to sleep last night. It didn’t even kind of take the edge off the pain.

It.

Does.

Nothing.

Not using my right arm is fucking impossible and she said if it doesn’t get better in 2 weeks I need to come back in and look into physical therapy. If it comes to that I may tell her I would rather have surgery. If I have to be touched in a medical context I’d rather be unconscious for it.

I’m mostly upset because I feel like I’m not being taken seriously. I overcame a major phobia only to be prescribed something I could get over the counter at a grocery store. And I’m still in pain. The same damn amount of pain.

lymefight:

eleri-kay:

please remember that just because you appear calm doesn’t mean you don’t have anxiety

anxiety can manifest itself through perfectionism, obsessive compulsive behaviors, hyper-vigilance, irritability, increased maladaptive coping mechanisms, extreme caution, racing thoughts, insomnia, nightmares, and more. it doesn’t always appear as jittery hyperactivity

anxiety doesn’t always show, and you don’t have to force it to show in order to get help

YES

I was doing so well. I sucked it up and saw a doctor about my shoulder. I went to get my prescription myself. I was stuck 2 hours at the clinic waiting to be seen and didn’t yell at anyone or get upset. They forgot about me and I didn’t get upset. 

But then I found out that the muscle relaxant was on back order and I’d have to wait at least 2 days for it. Or drive way out of my way during rush hour for it. And loser edgelord over here had to have a fucking breakdown in the fitting room. At Walmart. I had a breakdown at walmart. In front of a pharmacist. 

Why.

Ray Ray, I love you more than life, more than the stars, and even more that enchiladas, but I have had a very rough day. An I-Cried-In-Walmart kind of day. I’m gonna need you to keep your furry little face away from my chicken tenders.